Meeeeeeeee.

Snow.

Why can’t it look this pretty when it snows here? I wish.

I’m bored, and my laptop isn’t coming in till like, the 18th? Thats so far away. I hate using my brothers computer, it’s awkward. Though yesterday my dad put everything from my computer on a different hardrive so it’s all safe and I can put it all back on when I get my laptop, I seriously can’t wait.

Withdrawels.

My computer died (I am currently on my parents), it got some horrible virus (probably from all the sims stuff i download thats probably not safe :D) and nothing on it works anymore. My dad is trying to virus scan it and make it better and whatever, but I miss it lmao.

I did get my new phone today, which I love dearly. And I was on tumblr on it earlier lmao cuz I hate not having a computer. I’m bored. Ugh. I need a life.

Hm.

I definitely had a better day today. For the most part, I am wicked behind in homework. I have a lot of hard stuff to do, I’m suppose to be bringing in my art project done tomorrow, but of course I’m not going to (cuz I’m no where near done). So I’m avoiding that and I sadly have a lot of stuff to do for childcare shes fucking crazy. >.<

But besides school today was semi good. I just gotta get through school tomorrow and thank god it will be the weekend. Though Saturday I am babysitting all day I am getting paid which is sweet cuz I lost $20. Which was my gas money >.< and I plan on watching harry potter (: alright wells, I am going to bed.

Days.

My last few have been pretty rough, esp yesterday. It was pretty much miserable. Hopefully today will be better. I need to get out of this slump, i miss being as happy as i was. It’s so strange how your emotions can change so crazily in the course of two days.

Snow day.

Well for me anyways, my brothers bus was a half hour late and my mom gave up and called them and said not to bother. She didn’t trust the bus in the snow so she just kept us both home. And plus, she didn’t want me driving to school and she didn’t wanna drive herself so I had no ride. It just isn’t worth it. And then if it keeps snowing all day, trying to find a ride home is gonna be hell.

But thats okay cuz I’m gonna get a lot done today, I’m cleaning my room. Finishing my art project (hopefully). Watching Harry Potter with my dad :D. I just don’t understand why they make people go to school in weather like this, it’s retarded. It’s like endangering people, thats horrible.

My moms friends on facebook are even telling her to keep us home, I loveee it.

So.

I wanna see Dear John, really really bad (:

Theres this boy.

And we’ve gone through some crazy things together. For awhile he was the only one that i thought understood me. We both went through tragedies at the same time involving our family members so we really helped each other out. Now this boy is basically a stranger.

We used to spend every single day together, he used to call me every night just to see how my day went. Now the only time hes called me is if he needs a ride. It’s really starting to hurt. He was the only person I told EVERYTHING to, without him around i feel really alone. The other night when I saw him, I barely knew who I was seeing. It has gotten to the point where he even forgot my birthday, I know thats kinda lame but it hurts all the same. He’s my best friend and he always will be. I just wish he’d let me in. He’s always too busy to hang out with me, even talk to me. It really hurts and I don’t even have him to talk about whats bothering me.

I’m kinda lost.